Tag Archives: career

I can see it now…

17 Apr


These past few weeks, I have been back to focusing on my career and it’s development. My biggest issue is time. For me it doesn’t pass fast enough, I want to fast forward over these years where I am doing “grunt” work so I can finally get to the job I want. “What is that job?”, you ask. Well, I’m still not exactly sure, but here’s what I do know for right now (and that’s enough):

1. Its a high-level job, where I am the leader (I really like being in charge)

2. I am able to have a work-life balance. Working hard is ok, but I must have my own life (a relationship, family, a dog) as well

3. I get paid extremely well.

4. I enjoy the work I do and find it interesting.

5. I envision this job to be a mix of my current skills in marketing, digital media, and events

Ok great! I have an outline of what the hell I want! WOOOT!! I must express how big an accomplishment this is to finally have it in some sort of writing. So here’s what I am doing to get it:

1. Studying for the GRE. I think a graduate degree (program TBD) will help me achieve my goals. I am a strong believer in formal education.

2. Gaining as much experience as I can in my current job. Assessing my weakness and using this time to work on them.

3. Working on just being happy.


Screw You! (Banishing Bad Thoughts)

3 Apr

Starting out with screw you probably isn’t the most positive way to start this post, but I promise it has a good message, so stick with me. 

A year or two ago  3 years ago, I somehow got it in my head that “I don’t know what I want”, “I’m lost”, “I don’t know what I’m doing” “I’m impetuous” etc. and I have been living my life like these are my truths ever since.  I’m not sure I am making any sense so I will just get to the point: I have been holding myself back for 3 years!!! 

This morning something clicked. I have been the creator of my own struggles. I need to banish the thoughts of “I can’t”, “But what if I change my mind”, “What if it’s the wrong decision”, because I can’t go anywhere or make ANY progress as long as I am thinking and afraid of those things. 

So here is to one step forward, and NO steps back (see, I’m changing my thinking)! 


So much pressure

5 Apr

This week the editorial staff at work is conducting interviews for the summer internship. More times than not, the interviewees arrive plenty early and have to wait in the lobby (what good little go-getters) giving me time to chat them up. This afternoon a bright-eyed, curly red-head came in and announced she was here for her interview, with an enthusiasm I knew too well. We got to talking and she told me she was a freshman at USC, she grew up in the Valley, and went to Harvard Westlake (a very high-end private school that only accepts extreme success, not unsimilar to my own high school). Her first question to me was “Did you always want to be a lifestyle journalist?” I thought it was such an interesting way to ask a question, so specific. I was actually caught off guard and struggled to answer. So I turned the question back on her, her response “As long as I can remember.” I congratulated her on starting on the right path to success so early in her career. In truth, I was jealous, I had no idea this is where I’d be right now, and had I known that I wanted to be journalist (which I am not even sure if that is what I want to be) I would have been doing the exact same thing, trying to interview at the best place possible to get ahead of everyone else. This must be the reason that right now I feel so behind. With every new life path I choose to take, I always feel I am behind because everyone knew they wanted to do that job for their whole lives. I was raised based on the idea that you must work harder than everyone else to achieve success, so how can I even compete with people who have years of experience on me?  The answer is that I need to let go of the pressure I put on myself. I know there is no way to plan, life with play itself out the way its going to, and I really have no direct control over that. I need to see that the work I do now is not to compete but to grow. Even knowing these things, I can’t help but wish that I could go back just four years and choose differently, take different classes, do other internships, explore even more so I could be better prepared for now.